Where to Begin?
Where do I even start to begin? That is a good question.
I guess I should start by saying that for those that don't know, YES, TexasGrey and I have separated and are getting a DIVORCE after being together for 14.5 years and being married for 8.5 of those.
For those that don't know, I am staying with a very dear friend of mine. I have known her since she was a substitute teacher, 11 years ago. She was also one of the bridesmaids in our wedding. She has a 3 bedroom house in Sacshe, and is gracious enough to let me habitate in her extra bedroom. THANK YOU LO!!!!!!!! She just got married a few weeks ago and just returned from a 12 day trip to Italy. Her new husband is out of town on business a lot, so I stay here and make sure the house is safe. She is like a sister to me now. I very hot sister, but a sister nontheless!!!!
The two of us will be taking over the LIFE classes at our school next year, in addition to running our schools Academic Pentathlon Team. So, we live together, will work in the same classroom together, and sponsor an academic team together. Good thing we get along so well huh? lol
As many of you probably have already heard, yes, I have a girlfriend. Someone I have known for 5 years now, and that TexasGrey and I used to work with at our other school. I have come to know her quite well these last couple months, and find many wonderful qualities in her that I admire very much. YES, we went out exactly 2 times before I moved out of the house for good. The first time was as a friend to talk to about everything that I had found out about TG, and to discuss my extremely high blood pressure. TG gave her approval and fully supported it. For years she had been telling me I needed to go find a girlfriend. The second time was when we went to church. Apparently, she had been attending the same church for several weeks that TG and I used to attend. I think my new neighbor out here in Sachse may start attending it also :)
If you don't like the fact that I went out on a date with someone before I moved out of the house, tough shit, get over it. I am a 37 year old man, and TG had said for years for me to go out with other women. I think that considering the circumstances going on at the time, it is allowed. If not, like I said, tough shit!
TG has met some guys that she likes and goes out with now. I am happy for her. I think she is very happy with her new freedom. She tells me she is anyway. I am sorry, but I am not the dating several people kinda guy. I like being in a one on one relationship. It goes back to that whole comforting thing. I wish her nothing but the best in her life now.
As for Buddha ( PITA for those that read TG's blog ) I wish her all the best as well. She doesn't have me around to yell at her for not doing stuff now. I miss her more than any of you will ever know. You all probably saw me as the very over bearing dad, and I was. I was because I only wanted her to be the best that she could be, and she can be great. She is smarter than hell, even though her grades don't show it. I think about her every single day and cry. I wish I could have been the father she really deserved, and I wasn't. Every day when I leave and come home, I have to pass this temple with all these Buddha looking statues, and it reminds me of her. Out of all the things I regret in my life, not being able to show her how much I love her and how much she means to me is the biggest regret. When her and I are alone, we usually laugh and have a good time. I don't know why I wasn't that way with her all the time, I wish I was.
It is going to be a struggle for me to get by for a while. With the way things are going to be split, TG will be taking the house, the animals, her vehicle, 2 of her credit cards, and the bills associated with the house. I will be taking ALL the accumulated debt we acquired, which is pretty damn substantial. I have been reading the book called THE TOTAL MONEY MAKEOVER, and that is the plan that TG and I did many years ago to get mostly out of debt. Unfortunately, when her dad laid me off from my second job at his office, that plan went out the window. Well, I am going to be doing it again to try to climb myself out of this whole that I have taken on. THANK GOD that Lo isn't charging me rent for living here!
Well, it is nearly 3 am, and I have to make a Mary Kay delivery in a few hours, then rest up for the rodeo on Saturday at my parents place.
If any of you reading this wants to know more, just give me a call or e-mail me. I am sure you can get my number somehow.
I guess I should start by saying that for those that don't know, YES, TexasGrey and I have separated and are getting a DIVORCE after being together for 14.5 years and being married for 8.5 of those.
For those that don't know, I am staying with a very dear friend of mine. I have known her since she was a substitute teacher, 11 years ago. She was also one of the bridesmaids in our wedding. She has a 3 bedroom house in Sacshe, and is gracious enough to let me habitate in her extra bedroom. THANK YOU LO!!!!!!!! She just got married a few weeks ago and just returned from a 12 day trip to Italy. Her new husband is out of town on business a lot, so I stay here and make sure the house is safe. She is like a sister to me now. I very hot sister, but a sister nontheless!!!!
The two of us will be taking over the LIFE classes at our school next year, in addition to running our schools Academic Pentathlon Team. So, we live together, will work in the same classroom together, and sponsor an academic team together. Good thing we get along so well huh? lol
As many of you probably have already heard, yes, I have a girlfriend. Someone I have known for 5 years now, and that TexasGrey and I used to work with at our other school. I have come to know her quite well these last couple months, and find many wonderful qualities in her that I admire very much. YES, we went out exactly 2 times before I moved out of the house for good. The first time was as a friend to talk to about everything that I had found out about TG, and to discuss my extremely high blood pressure. TG gave her approval and fully supported it. For years she had been telling me I needed to go find a girlfriend. The second time was when we went to church. Apparently, she had been attending the same church for several weeks that TG and I used to attend. I think my new neighbor out here in Sachse may start attending it also :)
If you don't like the fact that I went out on a date with someone before I moved out of the house, tough shit, get over it. I am a 37 year old man, and TG had said for years for me to go out with other women. I think that considering the circumstances going on at the time, it is allowed. If not, like I said, tough shit!
TG has met some guys that she likes and goes out with now. I am happy for her. I think she is very happy with her new freedom. She tells me she is anyway. I am sorry, but I am not the dating several people kinda guy. I like being in a one on one relationship. It goes back to that whole comforting thing. I wish her nothing but the best in her life now.
As for Buddha ( PITA for those that read TG's blog ) I wish her all the best as well. She doesn't have me around to yell at her for not doing stuff now. I miss her more than any of you will ever know. You all probably saw me as the very over bearing dad, and I was. I was because I only wanted her to be the best that she could be, and she can be great. She is smarter than hell, even though her grades don't show it. I think about her every single day and cry. I wish I could have been the father she really deserved, and I wasn't. Every day when I leave and come home, I have to pass this temple with all these Buddha looking statues, and it reminds me of her. Out of all the things I regret in my life, not being able to show her how much I love her and how much she means to me is the biggest regret. When her and I are alone, we usually laugh and have a good time. I don't know why I wasn't that way with her all the time, I wish I was.
It is going to be a struggle for me to get by for a while. With the way things are going to be split, TG will be taking the house, the animals, her vehicle, 2 of her credit cards, and the bills associated with the house. I will be taking ALL the accumulated debt we acquired, which is pretty damn substantial. I have been reading the book called THE TOTAL MONEY MAKEOVER, and that is the plan that TG and I did many years ago to get mostly out of debt. Unfortunately, when her dad laid me off from my second job at his office, that plan went out the window. Well, I am going to be doing it again to try to climb myself out of this whole that I have taken on. THANK GOD that Lo isn't charging me rent for living here!
Well, it is nearly 3 am, and I have to make a Mary Kay delivery in a few hours, then rest up for the rodeo on Saturday at my parents place.
If any of you reading this wants to know more, just give me a call or e-mail me. I am sure you can get my number somehow.
posted by Bartman's Place @ 12:12 AM
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